So, as you can tell by the title I would like to write a bit about my diagnoses. For the past two years I have been in a psychiatric hospital, hence my lack of posting. I got diagnosed with Asperger’s when I was 22, I had been struggling with social aspects of life and also sensory issues, for example loud noises, or the feel of certain fabrics. I got bullied a lot in school for being ‘weird’ and ‘obsessive’, I also found that I struggled with concentration in class. The diagnosis was a big relief for me, finally I had reasons for why I behaved in a certain way (like headbanging, creating patterns in my mind and counting things).

About a year ago, I finally got diagnosed with Schizophrenia also. I started hearing voices in my final year at university, they were telling me to jump in front of traffic and kill myself. I got put on some anti psychotic medication and met a social worker every week. A year or so later I stopped taking my medication and quickly deteriorated, I started self harming because of the voices and I was visually hallucinating. I eventually got admitted to hospital, then sectioned a few days after admission. Then for the past 2 years I have been hallucinating, completely deluded and self harming. I used to think I was part of mi5, figuring out codes from leaflets. I also believed I could fly and have Jedi powers.

In September I got put on anti psychotic medications called Clozapine and Amisulpride and they have changed my life around, the positive symptoms (hallucinations and delusions) have pretty much gone and I have been self harm free since September! I am also getting 2 nights leave at home for Christmas. I would just like to say, it has been a long and hellish journey, but things are starting to look up. If anyone has any questions related to ASD or Schizophrenia just inbox me! Thanks for reading.